Feb. 9th, 2004
Looking back
Feb. 9th, 2004 09:16 amI was reading my old LJ entries, and noticed that Meegan and Wing are/were right. I am too trusting.
I trusted certain people that didn't deserve trust one iota. I was open and honest with backstabbing, backbiting, 'we have our own agenda' people. And they just sucked from me what was useful and when they got everything needed, they used any excuse they could to justify their later actions. I still wonder how people like that can sleep at night, but then remember they have no conscience. My aunt would have said "they will get what's coming to them. Might take time, but it will happen."
Meegan said they were lucky that their 'ugliness' didn't show on the outside, and she is right. But it is a pity that it can't. Would make identifying and avoiding them much easier.
Update 2:24pm
Meegan called and I told her about this revelation and one other. She started laughing and said "It's about %$#%ing time!" But I had to reach the point where I saw what happened as nothing to do with me, but someone else's paranoia, insecurity and need to control, and fear of losing that control.
Who says you can't teach an old dog new tricks? (grin) Arf.
I trusted certain people that didn't deserve trust one iota. I was open and honest with backstabbing, backbiting, 'we have our own agenda' people. And they just sucked from me what was useful and when they got everything needed, they used any excuse they could to justify their later actions. I still wonder how people like that can sleep at night, but then remember they have no conscience. My aunt would have said "they will get what's coming to them. Might take time, but it will happen."
Meegan said they were lucky that their 'ugliness' didn't show on the outside, and she is right. But it is a pity that it can't. Would make identifying and avoiding them much easier.
Update 2:24pm
Meegan called and I told her about this revelation and one other. She started laughing and said "It's about %$#%ing time!" But I had to reach the point where I saw what happened as nothing to do with me, but someone else's paranoia, insecurity and need to control, and fear of losing that control.
Who says you can't teach an old dog new tricks? (grin) Arf.